Because 1. many of you have been asking, and 2. this is a way for me to find support & give support to others that may be going through the same thing.
Basically, my cancer is growing.
Really slowly!! and not by a lot!! but still... growing. 😕
In the past year, my thyroglobulin (the tracker for my thyroid cancer) has increased from 2.8, to 3.3, to NOW 3.5. Is it enough of an increase to freak out? No- but the general trend is a bit off setting. In regards to my scans, they found a tiny vascular nodule in my right thyroid bed that is super small (like 0.2x0.3 cm). Could this be the cancer? Maybe... But it's not big enough to do surgery or anything- just something to watch and keep a close eye on.
My instructions were to wait, and to get my tests and scans in 6 months to see if anything changes. 😑
But the thing is, I don't want to wait. I want to HEAL myself NOW and have this cancer thing be overrrrr.
I feel annoyed, frustrated, and exhausted from this whole experience. Been dealing with cancer for the past 11 years-- this thyroid cancer alone for the past 4 years. I feel like I am running a never-ending marathon where the finish line keeps moving up 10 miles. I keep wondering if I should mentally prepare myself for this to be a long-lasting chronic thing, or if I should put in all my hope/effort/time/money/energy to get rid of it as soon as I can.
I am resetting my mindset to a combination of both ideas. I need to find a balance of preparing myself mentally for a long journey, AND also be positive, full of hope, and never give up on my daily challenges, whatever they may be. If freedom of cancer is what I want, I need to be consistent and powerfully determined with my actions EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
I am not cancer free yet, but I am determined to get there. I don't know how long it will take, (I may become a grandma before I get there! 👵🏼), but I am going to fight every day. I will be victorious. 👊🏼
Here I go... 🙂