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Health Update: October 17, 2017

Because 1. many of you have been asking, and 2. this is a way for me to find support & give support to others that may be going through the same thing. 


Basically, my cancer is growing.
Really slowly!! and not by a lot!! but still... growing. πŸ˜•

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Detailed explanation/thoughts: 
In the past year, my thyroglobulin (the tracker for my thyroid cancer) has increased from 2.8, to 3.3, to NOW 3.5. Is it enough of an increase to freak out? No- but the general trend is a bit off setting. In regards to my scans, they found a tiny vascular nodule in my right thyroid bed that is super small (like 0.2x0.3 cm). Could this be the cancer? Maybe... But it's not big enough to do surgery or anything- just something to watch and keep a close eye on. 
My instructions were to wait, and to get my tests and scans in 6 months to see if anything changes. πŸ˜‘ 

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But the thing is, I don't want to wait. I want to HEAL myself NOW and have this cancer thing be overrrrr. 


I feel annoyed, frustrated, and exhausted from this whole experience. Been dealing with cancer for the past 11 years-- this thyroid cancer alone for the past 4 years. I feel like I am running a never-ending marathon where the finish line keeps moving up 10 miles. I keep wondering if I should mentally prepare myself for this to be a long-lasting chronic thing, or if I should put in all my hope/effort/time/money/energy to get rid of it as soon as I can. 
I am resetting my mindset to a combination of both ideas. I need to find a balance of preparing myself mentally for a long journey, AND also be positive, full of hope, and never give up on my daily challenges, whatever they may be. If freedom of cancer is what I want, I need to be consistent and powerfully determined with my actions EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. 
I am not cancer free yet, but I am determined to get there. I don't know how long it will take, (I may become a grandma before I get there! πŸ‘΅πŸΌ), but I am going to fight every day. I will be victorious. πŸ‘ŠπŸΌ

Here I go... πŸ™‚

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Being an artist


Being an artist means forever healing your own wounds and at the same time endlessly exposing them.
— Annette Messager

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Teaching 2 classes per week!

It was always a dream of mine to teach in the city. I am proud to announce that my dream will be coming true not just once, but TWICE a week! Beginning this week, I will be teaching 2 classes in the city every week. Join me on Tuesdays at Brickhouse NYC 4-5:30pm, and then in Thursdays at Peridance 7-8:30pm!

See you in class!

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I Can't Keep Up - NEW CLASS at BRICKHOUSE NYC!

This is my class from a few weeks ago. I am so thankful to have a home here at Brickhouse NYC to explore and do what I do. πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ’› β€’ Also, these dancers killed it. (Natalie, Quinn, Michelle, Lauryn, and Dana!)

This piece is inspired by a recurring nightmare I had during my chemotherapy years ago. It went like this-- I was up at bat playing a game of baseball, and the ball machine thing would spit baseballs out at me one at a time. Then, it would shoot the balls out faster and faster and faster. I had no time to recover, prepare, reset, think... I was trying to stand up, but I kept falling over, just getting smacked, slammed and bruised all over my body. We can all relate to not keeping up, whether it be work, our career, our family, our health... well, that's what this piece it about. How we handle times of intense distress and chaos in our lives....

#showmelove #findlove #dowhatyoulove #icantkeepup

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my life (in 54 words)

Illness is not something to feel ashamed of. It is not a sign of misfortune or defeat. Suffering is the fuel of wisdom, and it opens the way to happiness. Through illness, human beings can gain insight into the meaning of life, understand its value and dignity, and strive to lead more fulfilling lives.

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